urgh

mode: sad
song @ the mo`: Don't Speak - No Doubt

haih. was doing photo shooting of zainal abidin, then suddenly received msg from geri "i hv resigned." i can't control my myself n i ran into the washroom n try to read again the msg "i hv resigned." ape nih!?!?!!? belom sempat nak buat ape2, my mood kene tarik kaw kaw, n i quietted myself thru out the day. haihhhhh, seriously la the impact is sooo deep. another friend of mine is leaving the company after sue ching. crappy, stoned, blurred whole nite now. haihhhhhh. on our way back (me n helena), fly fm was playing no doubt's dont speak. the moment was soooo sad, with the rain, i cant tahan myself n i cried in helena's car. urgh! why m i not strong enuff? ive been praying to god to gimme the guts n strength, but then, its always not enuff.

so here i typed out what i'm feeling now. i feel so fucked up at the moment, i blew it off at my mom, my mom scolded me cos being temper, goshhhh!!! what a day. i wish dis isn't happening. i wish i haf a remote to rewind the whole thing again. the sickish part was, i wasnt in the ofc just now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why !!!!!!!!!!!!?!!?!?!?!?!!? why must i go without saying goodbye to geri!!!!!!?!!?!!?!?!?!!!??!! memang after breakfast i felt there is something wrong. usually when i go out, i will turn to geri n wave. but then, i just walked off the ofc. godd!!!!!!!!! i felt so regret of goin to the interview. so so so so so fucking regret!!!!!! why did i go!!!!!!!?!?!?!! urgh!!!!!!! i feel like screaming, throwing shits. haih...

the best part is, when i reached home, i turned on the pc, connect to streamyx n open this link www.jobstreet.com.my, www.jobsdb.com, and update my resume. woo hoo!

maweeyar *her dark psycho-mind speaks...*